Its true females can not keep secrets for more than 48 hours. But thats because we are always thinking. We get trapped in our own heads and we can’t get out till we can express what we are thinking and get an opinion or for someone to just listen. Which was exactly something that i needed. A few days ago one of my best friends told me that he use to have a crush on me. I asked him when did it stop, he just told me that it stopped when he got his current girlfriend. So since nothing really happened to make him stop liking me it probably means he still has some feeling towards me. Since there was so much drama with the start of his relationship I guess he was just wondering if he had choice right with choosing his current gf. So he asked me what i would have done if he told me about his feelings sooner. Well i told him what i usually do when a friend of mine shows interest in me. That i would have avoided him and distance myself from him till i felt like his feelings have moved on. Because  since so many of my best friends are guys i try to treat any guy i meet like i would want other girls to treat my friends. So i would never just string along a guy because i would be upset if they were doing that to one of my friends. The truth is that i he is such a sweet guy and actually the first friend that i ever cried in front of. He knows when he looks at me that if I’m upset or not and knows to not stop asking whats wrong till i answer. I really appreciate his friendship and would never want to ruin it. But i cant help but think that he could have been different that he could have been the one to get past my exterior. I couldn’t have told him the night he told me about his feelings because he’s in a relationship and it would just cause uncertainty and confuse him more. I’m not sitting here saying that I”m in love with him, I’m just saying that if he told me about his feelings before hand that things might have been different. I love him and his gf so i would never do anything to upset that. Actually i”m very happy that his gf likes me too because i always hate it when they dont like me, because it always ends up ruining the friendship. 

my final thought

The reason my friend told me about his feelings is that he just needed closure on his feelings towards me and move on knowing that he had made the right decision.

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